This has been a roller coaster of a week. On Tuesday, I gave my official notice to my daytime job. Starting September 1, I will be a SAHM. Or will I be a WAHM? I’ll still be doing freelance work and I will most certainly still be running the Etsy shop. But my boy’s awake time will be spent with him. (Thank goodness he goes to bed early)
So many feelings were involved in this decision. So many. It’s hard to even comprehend everything I felt going into it. I can honestly say I had NEVER been nervous about resigning from a position in the past. Heck, one time, I knew I was going to be fired ahead of time..sorry, “laid off”, and as soon as I walked out of the building, my Facebook status was updated to “This is my FAVORITE day ever”.
We told some friends last weekend that it would be happening. One of them said it wasn’t fair, that I get 2 favorite days ever before she finally got her 1. But Tuesday wasn’t my favorite day ever. I’m sure September 1 will be, but not for the same reasons. I’m not leaving a terrible company. I’m leaving an amazing company. I get to work from home for them. They are great people and despite being 9000 miles away from every single one of my coworkers, they made me feel like part of the family. But now I have my own family to worry about. And it is growing. Childcare is ridiculously expensive. Taxes are ridiculously expensive. I’m all for paying my part, but working a full time job is no longer the financially responsible thing to do. Weird, right? What kind of society do we live in?
So Tuesday was crazy. I got through it. I think my boss was sad. You can only tell so much via Skype. I hope to maintain a relationship with them. Then Wednesday was lame, ptb had to leave to teach a course in New York. Then Thursday, the week got CRAZY. But we’ll talk about that later. Much later. For now, just say a little prayer for me, or a big one if you have the time… I need more good things coming my way. I need the Etsy shop to work once I am done working. And I need a little prayer from you, that something amazing happens.